Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Rah Rah Rah ! (;

That  quote from an old post Lile wrote when someone asked her about our relationship and I really liked it.  I decided it was perfect for this post because this is going to be a Lile-centric post.




Give Me An L!
So, we said goodbye to Bellum and I guess something new and unexpected is on the horizon now,but I'll wait patiently.

  This serial made me a true believer in the SH-LILE Paradox line--which by the way Lile coined during TDOLL here.  I remember I had just started writing HMLIS with Jonah and his blind friend and then Lile has a character named Jona dating a blind guy. It was so bizarre. I am forever in awe of the worldbuilding, deconstruction and myth building in this series. My favorite thing is how all of her stories take place in NY, but each one feels unique. I really liked how she pushed limits and boundaries and it's kind of inspiring me,


Give Me an I ! 
One thing Lile mentioned in her post is taking out violence because of so much IRL violence and I sympathize with this so much. I had the same issue during Vice and even now with Compulsion. I mean there are a lot of uniformed people in positions of power taking advantage in this serial. I mean when I heard the Serial topic I was like....really ? I have a feeling I'll find out I'm using the word court martial wrong.

Give Me an L!
UL is going so well....I'm afraid to jinx it. It's 4 chapters long so far and I'm just not sure when it will go up. Hopefully within the next 6 months. I'm having so much fun with it.

Give Me an E!
In my next post you're going to meet my muse. She's a little darker than CPShawna

*Drum Roll*
Okay, one last Lile thing....I kind of have a gift for her (and you!). Have you all noticed I've been referencing old posts in this post ? Well, that's because as I am re-reading UL posts and chapters for UL3  I realized that Playlist.com shut down and all of my UL playlists are gone. Thank goodness the songs were in the posts, so  I've been slowly rebuilding them on Spotify to create a mood playlist.

When Lile announced the end of Bellum was near I decided to do the same for Lost Angels and Litany Lane.

. Some songs are missing because they aren't on Spotify, but for the most part they are in order. And you guys...these have been my writing music recently.

Linda Leigh's Lost Angel's Playlist (60 songs)
Linda Leigh's Litany Lane Playlist (139 songs)

Okay, back to Compulsion

Chapter 19
So last chapter Maxwell did cocaine and made out with one of his inmates so...time for him to go to  Ft. Perch for an evaluation where he is probably going to get fired. A lot of this dialogue can be read in Scandal voice.

Chapter 19
Playlist
-1- Unrequited by TOTEM
-2- Window by Album Leaf
 

Saturday, December 12, 2015

UL GIF update + 17/18

Commitment
You guys, I kind of suck. I really need to commit to actually posting. I have the chapters, but all I want to do is edit and hold on to them in case I want to change something later--in fact I've already created a huge logical fallacy, but it's nothing any of you all would notice. As you'll see in the GIF update below, i've got other things (okay, thing) stewing, so I want to commit to posting and  I'm making that commitment here. Once a week at the least. 


Obligatory UL3 Update in GIF Form






Sometimes I look at my laptop like:










Or:












It's also  a lot of me screaming:











 And planning a lot of












and












and even some....











I'm also really into the UL3  playlist. I started it a year ago and it's only 15  28 songs so far but I love getting to use fluffy romance and pop songs.


Recap
I actually kind of rewrote these with a few reminders of past events.

All you need to remember is that a sandstorm comes through Ft. Harmony and Maxwell let's Haley (who's been sleeping outside) sleep in his room because Maxwell is pulling an all nighter preparing for his visit to been called to Ft. Perch.

Also, Alan is undercover in the Mjollner trying to find Sara and Rayne's baby.

Chapter 17
Playlist

Chapter 17
-1- Eastern Glow by The Album Leaf
-2- Fire by Kinna Grannis

Chapter 18
- Feelin' Myself - by Beyonce and Nicki Minaj
- Keep It Movin'- by Serayah (I kind of love this song...there is a few Empire tracks in UL3)

Thursday, November 12, 2015

780 Words

*peeks out of trenches*


 Erik crashed my post last time so I'm hitting post on this one in real time ! 



Chapter 14
So, Alan is on another Hero's Journey as he is sent undercover in the Mjollner o find Rayne and Sera's son. One of the things I never liked about Hidden is just how quickly Alan became competent, so I'm slowing it down this time around, making him more hesitant.

780 Words. That is all.
So, don't think to much into it, but I have 780 good words in UL3. I'm really having to reintroduce myself to this serial. As I go back for character information I feel like I know them, but all the plot bits have faded. I'm so confident in the story this time around and it will be very similar to OHG. I'm trying to keep with the logic set up in UL2, but a few things may be out of sync.

I'm not sure when I'll post it, I'd love to be more ahead. I see this as less of a serial and more of  a series of  closely connected vignettes. Maybe.

I went back in and  realized UL2 was only eight chapters...I want get back to those kind of short serials...I just need the plot bunnies to send me something !


Picspirtation
So one thing about UL is I have NEVER had good picspirations for the characters--especially Rhett, so I've been researching (or Tumblr as you may call it) but have had no luck. That said I found a really good Haley picspiration. I have no idea who this is though:




Also, I want Scott Eastwood to be a character in something I write one day. He just seems to be the handsomest of all the handsomes.




Let's Try Third Person
I mentioned I was getting rid of first person and one of the reasons I did that was because with third person you can hop from perspectives within chapters. I experimented with this in Chapter 15. We have two shorties tonight.

Chapter 15 & 16

Recap: Maxwell is stressed because he's been called to Ft. Perch for a review and when he sees Haley looking through his personal items in his room he makes him work out with him. Also Felix and Marco are suspicious of if Harlow really made it.

Recap: Alan is going undercover in the Mjollner

Playlist
Chapter 15 (w/link to 16)

Chapter 15
FourFiveSeconds by Fairground Saints
Eastern Glow by The Album Leaf

Chapter 16
Worth it by Fifth Harmony
Haunt by Bastille


Tuesday, October 6, 2015

A Recap So Far...in Gifs


Hey guys, it's Erik V. So SHV scheduled this post and then went to Yogurt Class so  I thought I'd sneak in to let you know Shawna's been watching an awful lot of  Coast Guard Alaska and Coast Guard Florida on Hulu. So....let's speculate....





Chapter 13
I'll be honest I wrote chapter 13 so long ago I'm not even sure what to say about it. I've really like writing Maxwell as a character, he's very different from the other SHV characters. He's mean and arrogant and relatively comfortable in his place in life. Or so he thinks. Haley is also fun because he is just so rule follow-y. Which makes it extra fun to Break the Cutie.

My next post should be a double chapter post. I've gotten all turned around with chapters because I've done a really bad job of numbering them. I have a lot of short chapters I wanted to pair together, but I'm trying to keep the flow. We may have back to back Alan chapters.

RECAP (IN GIFS)


So between Vice and Compulsion Sara has a baby with Rayne Washington



They have a christening and the baby's name is announced as Zacarias


Everyone gets super drunk and while leaving the party the baby is kidnapped by the Mjollner


The next morning  Minnow remembers Dakota saying something about "things going bad" for the Cartel. Rayne leads the way to Dakota's brothel where he claims he doesn't know anything. Minnow and Jean come back later to burn the brothel down. Because...reasons.

One of the escorts at the brothel, Sage, comes to Rayne and tells him Dakota lied about the survillence system. She doesn't know anything specific but Rayne doesn't trust her and takes her as a prisoner.



Rayne wants to keep the kidnapping a secret to save face. He tells them to go back to the city and act normal, but when they get to the city a dying Persephone tells them  she and a group of servers from The Luxor were attacked by a group of Mjollner. Minnow goes after the attackers with Alan and Luce in the backseat. She kills them all.



Finally fed up with all the retaliation and death and not getting her baby back, Sara decides she's taking things into her own hands.

Okay, I have to get to my new Yoga class ! 




Chapter 14

CHAPTER 14

PLAYLIST
-1-  Higher by The Cardigans
-2- I'm Scared by Duffy
-3-  Skin by Rihanna
-4- Stay With Me
 


Sunday, September 27, 2015

The Longest Recap

You: Hey, Shawna what is you excuse for posting late this time?

Me: Um....






I know, I know, I was supposed to have this up almost 3 weeks ago but I had some technical difficulties...and then I got lazy. But in other news I'm currently  writing Chapter 23.


 

She's Back
I have to say I'm taking the high road and saying that atleast it hasn't been a year since I last posted. This post is basically going to be one big recap of the last few chapters.  I've also changed a few things about the serial that I'll mention at the end of the chapter.

The Recap

Alex Haley picks the wrong night to go out with his brother Harlow. He and his friends Felix and Marco are arrested for stealing and sent to Camp Harmony, a prison work camp for the Republic Liberation Army that is controlled by Sgt. Kenneth Maxwell.  Maxwell decides Haley shouldn't be at the camp and tells him to leave--only he won't go. 

But this isn't Haley and Maxwell's first collision (ahem, Sundays aside) Haley visited Maxwell while he was in the hospital after a bad military operation. It's a moment Haley doesn't remember and Maxwell never forgot.

He’s walking along the row of beds across from mine, shyly handing roses to the wounded soldiers or, laying them on the beds of those who aren’t awake. When the boy gets to me, he glances at me for barely a second. His colorless eyes are almost too large for his face.
 
I start another coughing fit; bringing up water and bloody phlegm before the fit ends. A handkerchief is at my mouth, wiping away the mess and I'm burning. I take the handkerchief from him because I am atleast healthy enough to clean myself up.


“Are you okay ?,” he says so softly I don’t make it out at first.

“Yes-,” I respond.

 Before I can say thank you the nurse comes up behind him and starts scolding me for standing up. The boy quickly moves on, seemingly terrified of her wrath.

(By the way, that nurse is Audrina--who is married to Pascal from Vice.)

When Harloe tries to escape the prison camp he is shot by an over eager corporal and the bullet lodges in Haley's abdomen. Now Maxwell is scrambling to cover up the murder. Lucky for him Haley is knocked out on pain killers and, the next of kin, their sister Isla, despises Harlow so Maxwell has the body cremated and officially call the murder a suicide. The cover up would be fine except...

Maxwell had to convince  Haley to sign a false affadavit saying he witnessed Harlow kill himself.  In exchange for lying   Maxwell takes Haley to  see his brother's body before it is cremated and also gives him a job to finish off his 9 month prison sentence. But they are late to the crematoruim because rain triggers Maxwell's PTSD:

 I order a large cup of an imported blend.  I don’t offer to Haley and he doesn’t ask.

As I stir in some cream, I hear a soft pitter against the shop window. I watch a thin trail of rain brush against the glass and as it slides down it turns to dark blood.

I'm slipping.
Because they are late the body is cremated before Haley can see it and that doesn't go well

“There is no body.  I've had enough of this, we're going back now.” I say,  but he doesn’t move.

 I take Haley’s arm to pull him out of the room and he jerks away from me. 

I reach for him again and he throws the porcelain container on the tile floor. It smashes and the human remains scatter across the floor. Some of it dusts up and falls on my pants


I step back immediately, Mr. Hill seems mildly amused but not horrified.

My patience snaps and now I'm pissed.
And then there is this, which will come up later:

Mr. Hill’s eyes shift nervously and he looks up at me accusingly.


“You told me he wanted to visit with him. I didn’t know you meant the body---to be frank, after the hack job your nurse did on the body to ship it here you are better off not seeing--,”

"Watch how you speak about my staff," I warn Mr. Hill


Maxwell wants to help Haley, but he also thinks he is hiding something.


“The Corporals told me Harlow’s last words to you were. Something about going to hell. Is that's why you are so concerned with praying over his body? Because you believe he’s gone to hell  and you're next ?."

I can see the terror in his eyes, new tears start falling from the corners.

“That’s why you wanted to stay at camp,” I tell him. “ You figure if you do your time here it will somehow make up for whatever happened. It’s probably why you let your psycho brother torture you, you will just take anything. It’s all just some accumulating pain tithe for whatever you did. Am I right ?”

 Maxwell is also kind of attracted to Haley and really failing at keeping it professional...

I move to let go of his face, but some impulse I've been keeping inside takes over. I bring his face closer, my fingers curling around his stray strands of his hair. 


Carefully, I cover his mouth with my own, it’s barely a touch and lasts only a second, but I feel the whisper of his breath on my face. As I pull away I feel his entire body shaking violently beneath my grip.


"What if  I’m another thing sent by Satan to punish you  ?," I ask.


And maybe I am.

Because a voice in my head is telling me to take whatever I want because I deserve it for all the personal hell I’ve been through......


“Haley,” I say. “Tell me. What did you do ? I can protect you. I will help you.”

Haley leans his head against the window and I watch him close his eyes and pretend to be asleep. I know I could interrogate him and intimidate him to get my answer in a matter of hours, but I sense the entire train watching me.


I have the rest of this war to figure out what he is hiding, because as far I’m concerned he isn’t leaving until I find out.
 Chapter 13

CHAPTER 13
PLAYLIST
-1-  The Light by The Album Leaf (If I could use this song for all these parts I would)
-2-  My Body is A Cage

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Shawna is Unoriginal: Waves From The Well and Picspirations

(not that I think of you all as a fandom)



Obligatory GIF of Erik and I when Lile updated:
(I love that this is Drake)


First things first, there is no update.




Even Though Lately My Muse and I Have Been


Well, Well, Well...
So, I've jumped out of the trenches and I'm in actually in kind...of.... a well ? I usually write in chronological order as a preference, but for this serial I pretty much have to or I can't keep track of the stories...which is basically to say we are about to get a lot of POVs pretty soon. So, I'm drowning in a lot of story I need to keep in order and I'm having trouble seeing the top. Like a well.

Last time I posted was a false start and I really want to have the momentum this time. I opened this blog on 9/15 so I figured that would also be a good date to start posting again. In the mean time I've pulled some of my picspiations to share.

Picspirations
So,  as you all may have guessed I FINALLY have a good inspiration for Vice!Sara


 SERIOUSLY

It's not just the short hair, it's her general badass-ness mixed with vulnerability.


 This image made me think of Jean/Minnow

This is a picspiation for Sage. She's the prostitute Rayne kidnaps. If you don't remember her I'll come back to her.



Okay, now I have a recap to write (and you know...models on Tumblr) !

*comments*
Oh, I'm trying a new thing with the comments. I didn't want to make you all get accounts so once you enter your name you can check comment as a guest and then enter any e-mail address you want to comment. Any.E-mail.You.Want *winks*

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Ante(Belleum) Gif Post


You guys, I love Bellum




When Lile and I use different versions of the same song


When Lile uses a song I thought I had discovered


How I feel like  my dysfunctional couples would react to Lile's couples
 


Now, I'm a Paraphina shipper so you Parisobel folks....


 JK, but ...

 
At the beginning of Bellum I was like


Then Seraphina took off the white coat to reveal the black lingerie


Anytime Pariphna where in a room together after that

And there was a bed

And  she tied him up
(would love that scene from Sera's pov....)

How I feel about the end of Bellum III

Everything Dante and Callum say

Paris getting some backbone and becoming kind of swoony

When Isobel showed up

And Jona was the traitor


Erik and I are hitting F5 and waiting like


You: So, how are YOUR SERIALS going

What being in the trenches is like

Me reading my own stuff
because I have no idea...
My relationship with my muse is between

and...

Mind Games
I know I'm always going on about walls and trenches, but I'm actually really interested in  the Vice world. The more I work on this the more I want to explore the other parts of the Vice world. I could easily see myself writing about Luce or Haley's schools, other cartels, the East, the military. I have some of these stories in my head...but I'm not sure if they'll ever make it out.

Chapter 11
So, I don't have much to say about Chapter 11. I wanted to set up some of the main tension between Maxwell and Haley.  Haley is keeping a secret and is hiding from something and Maxwell wants to know what it is. This was one of the reasons Haley didn't have a first person POV.

Chapter 12
Now we are back to Alan Gray.
Quick recap; Rayne and Sara's baby is taken and Sara is so distraught they have to drug her. Rayne decided to take thing in his own hands and goes to Dakota's brothel, Dream, to intimidate hum by threatening to kill all his prostitutes. As you do.

 “You let him off to easy,” Minnow says once we are in the car. “He's  probably lying. Dakota will never help us.”

“I don’t need him to,” Rayne says confidently.
Chapter 12
Playlist
-1- Too Close by Alex Clare 
-2- Twentytwofourteen by The Album Leaf
-3- I Feel The Earth Move by Carole King